A Hard Week…on Top of Every Other Hard Week I’m Having

It’s been really hard to get done anything this week.  There are a lot of really bad things that are going to happen soon, really REALLY bad things.  We know this because a lot of very predictable bad things are already happening.  I don’t like to write about politics on here but this is beyond the preview of politics.  This has been a broad sweeping dismantling of decency, truth, and to sound somewhat corny, the American way of life.  They said four years ago that they were going to do whatever they want, regardless of outcomes.  And sure enough, they got their way while the responsible adults are sitting by and not following through on their responsibility.

     Aside from that shit.  I’m still working through my personal depression bullshit.  We’ve recorded a few hours of our Marvel Multiverse Game and I’m taking too long to get done the editing but I’m trying to do it.  I normally write at least five hundred words in this thing but I need to get something out and I just don’t have the energy to work a full article right now.  I’m sorry for the inconsistency with all this.  It’s been increasingly difficult to motivate myself doing anything pretty much my whole life but in particular the last couple years.  I am looking into getting help.  But it turns out that the groups I’ve been pointed to have some not great yelp reviews.  That’s not a deterrent for me it surely doesn’t help with the confidence in those organizations.  I am looking to get into therapy but we’ll see how things shake out.

     I think this may have been enough for today.  I’m two scotches in my cup and trying to get to sleep before.  The big problem is that I started my laundry backwards today and the sheets for my bed are still in the dryer right now.  So, I still have to wait awhile before they’re done and I can lay down.  I’m so very tired and the scotch has its work cut out for it.  I’m just about to the point where the booze can help me fall asleep but that window is already closing as I sit here typing.  At least there’s something interesting on the scanner right now.  It’s almost a shame that there’s no reliable news source to report it.  Fuck it, I’m going to eat my last ice cream sandwich right now and try to take a nape before work.  until next time.  Thanks for reading!